October 31, 2001

I think it was a good day
So I won the Halloween costume contest at work and got a $10 gift certificate to Blockbuster. Now I can rent all those foreign films I've been meaning to catch up on. I don't think my outfit is overly impressive but it is sorta cool. I just wish more people had dressed up so I felt more deserving over the competition.

Four people have now told me I should dye my hair black. This was directly after figuring out I am wearing a wig and this is not my natural hair. I think if I visited my mom with black hair she would be more upset than she was when she saw the magenta/pink/red hair. Strange reasoning...but she thinks dying your hair black means you are evil are something.

Tonight I am going up the Castro district in San Francisco and I am sorta nervous for a few reasons.

  1. I am worried that in the mass crowd my wings will get broken/smushed
  2. I am worried it will be cold and I can't wear a jacket over my wings
  3. I am worried it will be too crowded and I will get cranky
  4. I am worried my shoes will be too uncomfortable and I will have to wear non-matching shoes or sacrifice comfort for glam ( only girls understand this difficult choice)
  5. I am worried about terrorist crap because the media has brainwashed and scared me...they distinctly warned about going to crowded areas like Castro
However I do not have any other ideas of where to go and I am bent on seeing drag queens and lots of people in costume and this is the biggest street party around...For those who don't know, Castro is the rainbow district of San Fran and it gets pretty wild. I am going to cross my little fingers and hope all goes well and is fun.

All things Snoopy
I don't know why but I find Snoop Dogg so so so funny and President Bush being funny is a given. The man never makes a normal face.
And his counterpart

I am now a hypocrite complaining before about middle east jokes.
Uuughhhh
Someone in my office keeps squeezing a squeeky toy. This has been going on since 8 this morning at an average of 3 or 4 squeezes every 10 minutes. It is so so annoying and it is very high pitched. Every time she does it she giggles and asks her neighbor, "Am I bothering you? Hee hee. You know you like it." This is one of those things someone does over and over to get attention and see when someone else will eventually explode into a yelling frenzy like I am about to.
Two good things

I am the fallen angel today...I feel so gosh darn sultry sassy and purty...and dark....oooo mysterious.

My computer is in my room and all set up and is so awesome...60 gigs and Windows XP...I am a happy clam..or a happy angel...or just plain happy

October 30, 2001

I am slowly updating the poetry site
Tedious stuff
Isn't he a catch
Ha ha ha
Bridges are tricky
There is this bridge on the campbell park levee area that I cross over everytime I go rollerblading which is wooden and has annoying slats my wheels catch on. Everytime I carefully grab the railing and half walk/half rollerblade across...and everytime I fall or nearly fall. Back in the pre-accident days I could speed over this bridge and the momentum would keep my wheels from snaging and I wouldn't be scared and my adrenaline wouldn't be racing through my veins. Now when I go over the bridge I look ridiculous, holding the railing for dear life like a child holds their mother's hand in fear. In a near fall yesterday the wood railing saved me but left me with a nasty splinter which took 15 minutes under the knife, with my shaky left hand to remove. I am thinking of starting a petition to pave the bridge or replace the wood with some smooth alternative I can conquer.
Halloween Final Hint
Seeing as it is tomorrow...Black dress with black wings and a black wig and a HALO...dead giveaway...

October 29, 2001

Ummm
I am not sure if this is good or bad. It certainly classifies as troubling all around.
Yay for parents who have money
As promised when my parents moved away and I moved out: I could either take the old computer with me OR wait a month or 2 and daddy would bring me a shiny new computer. So I have been patiently anticipating the arrival of my new PC and...(drum roll) It will be here tomorrow, equipped with its 2 new companions: desk and chair. Yes this lovely trio of friends will be appearing live, in my room tomorrow around 2:30, and each day thereafter. That is PST for you excited east coasters. I can hardly wait. I am so stoked that I think I may have gained geek status. Granted I am not that savvy but it is way better than the computer we had before and it is NEW and it was virtually FREE.
Another let down
K-Pax was just no good. The plot was lame and the humor was definately lacking. I normally like Kevin Spacey's movies. He did a good job with the acting but the script was just yucky and the twists were not very well explained or thought out.

Donnie Darko on the other hand was the best film I have seen in a long time. The plot kept you on the edge of your seat. It had a great cast and numerous funny tag lines. I didn't know what to expect and went to see it on a whim and I am so glad I did. The ending left us with gaping mouths. It explained but not extensively and for once that was nice, to be able to speculate and discuss a movie and not leave feeling clueless. This reminds me of one of those little sci-fi ish cult following movies. Excellent and creative and brilliant...enough already...just go see it.

October 26, 2001

Yay for music
I saw Bis wednesday night and it was so awesome. This is the band that does the theme song for Power Puff Girls. I somehow stumbled upon them because they had a cool cd cover and back when I was first out of high school I worked at a cd store and we would crank up random cd's at closing, testing the merchandise. I've been a fan through their ever changing sound.
The venue was really small and intimate and besides being an all ages show which means immature kids still in high school whose actions scream exhibitionists...it was an enjoyable concert. I met Manda the lead singer and took a pic with her and was even winked at twice by Steve during the performance. The sound really came together well. Vocals could be heard over the music which would seem to be standard but in case of small venues usually the music drowns out the voices. Too bad that Bis only comes here like once every 2 years, granted they are from Glasgow, Scotland, but it still sucks they are never around.
I also found a cool new band: Dealership who has the sound I always look for but can never find. You know that poppy punky sing along type of music with thoughtful lyrics.
Ha ha ha
This is funny. No offense Maria
MIA
I wasn't around to blog my boring little heart out yesterday due to a day of destressing that was needed very badly. I have been having one of those weeks where I forget and drop things every fives seconds. My normal time increment between "accidents" is about 10 minutes, so I have not been handling this new onset with much ease. Yesterday it was nice to stay in bed and watch educational tv...like Jerry Springer, Blind Date and other such programming. My one trip out was to the library where I redeemed earlier mindlessness by picking up Hirohito and the Making of Modern Japan and All the Names. See I am edjamucated in the words of something Ralph Wiggum would say.
Halloween #5
This should be a giveaway now. I have wings. Black costume with wings and a dress...

October 24, 2001

Strange little place, ain't it?
So I was thinking the other day. Imagine being an alien if you will, and viewing earth from an objectionable stance. Sorta from a The Gods Must Be Crazy viewpoint I was thinking that we are a strange "civilized" society. We have made all these luxuries into necessities. We advance outselves and create new inventions to make out lives easier, when many a time we are complicating things more and more.

We used to be a hunting/gathering society, living simplistically off the land. Now we have computers and high tech jobs and schooling is a necessity. We have to learn all kinds of rules and regulations in order to live appropriately and this doesn't include all the overt and coverts that we have to learn from experience. We now live in a time where paper and pen have largely been replaced by computers. Heaven forbid our server goes down at work. We all have to go home for the day. We put our money in banks, we have this invisible thing called credit, which we can’t live without, and many other "important" things like cars and homes depend upon for purchasing.

We take pills to make ourselves normal; we alter the genes of plants, animals, minerals and humans. We play god. We strive toward an impossible idea of perfection and it seems more and more that we demand this perfection from each other. We mostly depend on cars, airplanes and various forms of public transportation. We are impatient with these methods and seem to have forgotten the days of horses, carriages, wagons, ships and walking. It seems to be unheard of to many of my friends to have to walk more than 20 feet from the car to the building. We fight over the closet spot at the supermarket or mall so as to avoid walking any more than necessary. We are always in a hurry even though we have nowhere to go. We have forgotten about inner beauty and nature and now focus on materialism and image. We don't take time to nurture our souls anymore.

In recent times especially, we need to take an objectionable look at the world. We fight amongst ourselves, within our own countries racism and discrimination are still very present. We have children being abused and neglected and many citizens are without food and shelter. Not only are countries in turmoil within, but so many nations can not get along with others. We all feel that one way is the best and those who don't agree must be wrong. Wars have been going on for years in certain nations. These people don't even know what a day would be like to wake up and not have to fear the surrounding war. When did we become a civilization that needed nuclear and biological warfare? There is so much aggression and blame within people. No one wants to take responsibility or admit that maybe they can change. It is our first instinct to point the finger in the face of accusation.

I don't offer solutions, although I would like to be productive. Many have an attitude that "I am only one person and what difference am I going to make." I feel that way many a time because it is easier to complain that to act or react. I hope as I continue to mature I can find an appropriate, successful outlet for all these feelings. I would like the world to be a better place, although I don't expect perfection. I think some precautions and ideas are well intended although others border on selfish acts, based around seeing if we can rather than if we should. Awareness would be the first step I would guess. I suppose I am just disheartened that many people are unaware that anything is amiss. It is amazing to me how quickly we have accepted the way things are.
I had to put up Blogback like most other people lately. The page takes forever to load now. Boo hoo, oh well.

October 23, 2001

Link Whore
Ok so I now know what a link whore is. The following was an actual reblogger post.

AAARRRGGGGGGGGGGHHHHHHH!!!!! [pause] Damn me, I am such a far-reak! Haha, okay sorry, I'm just going on my annual "Reblogger bash". I go around people's sites, and write weird things. Hoping they will link me. LOL Hahahahahahahahahaaahahhahahahhahahahaahaahahheeeeee!.. ##############23#############
MiSS - posted at 20:15 GMT 19/10/01


Yeah...that is rather forward and blatant self promotion. Using someone else's site for promo is bad. And even worse her site isn't really something I would want to read. It was tempting to leave nasty comments but I refrained. Poor girl is already bad off as it is.

Halloween hint #4 that no one cares about
My costume is black. It is generic and not specific. It is girl costume only ( I would hope) and is a dress.
Remember snotrockets?
Ha ha. Puck from MTV's Real World San Francisco was on The Weakest Link last night. It was pretty amusing because the host totally ignored him and he didn't get to make crappy outbursts although you could tell he was dying to. I was so amused. It all came down to Kato Kaelin and Kaya from that skanky island show, and poor Kato couldn't remember that butterflies start out as caterpillars...Oh yeah...Gennifer Flowers is the epitome of stupid blonde tramp. "Tee hee. I am so proud of sleeping with Bill Clinton." Ok that wasn't a direct qoute but she seemed so smug.